Grateful

For the many times I've wished I were White, there are even more times where I have been grateful for my background. Speaking Chinese has allowed me into the sub-culture of Chinese citizens and for this, I'll be forever grateful. Yet, even I can not dive fully into this world. The more I learn, the more I am discovering a line that separates me from being Chinese. I feel 12 again; struggling to fit in and realizing more and more that I can't but we the second-generation Americans, we the mix bloods, and we the seekers find solace in knowing the ability to transcend cultures is far better then our need to belong.